OK, I got a new job!
Time to check myself for points that I need to work out before I start selling.
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear that my clients won't be interested in me, and that they will thus not listen to me.
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear that I won't be listened to without defining what I can do to be listened to.
I commit myself to be interested in the people I talk to and take them as other people, and through the principle of ”give as you'd like to receive” I commit myself to see if I can assist myself to be able to talk to people.
I commit myself to talk to my clients without assuming that each ”mistake” will lead to the client reacting and leaving – in this, I commit myself to talk to my clients calm and within and as breath to not live out these reactions that are, at least for me, unpleasant to be around (this might be how I manifest ”not being listened to” myself; by creating a situation that is hard for the client to participate in by being reactive and self-judgmental / judgmental towards myself and the situation).
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear that if I do not sell enough, I will be fired – in this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to go into this fear without realizing that holding on to this fear while trying to do my job will burden me quite extensively as I will judge myself through the eyes of my superiors.
When and as I see myself going into self-judgment of ”making a mistake” or ”not being good enough”, I Commit myself to stop, to breathe and to realize that I am simply facing a point that I've not mastered yet. I commit myself to release my reactions with SF and to have a look at the point that I am having problems with to find a solution – with the assistance of my superiors if necessary. I commit myself to take this kind of self-betterment, with or without the initial self-judgment, as an everyday activity. I commit myself to focus on the practical side of mastering a skill – I commit myself to learn by doing.